Rest Without Shame, 2022

Compost piles are an exercise in both decay and generation, where parts of matter are unmade and make themselves into new, nutrient-giving forms. They are experiments in agency, where intentions matter less than the availability of discourse and the shape it can take by being turned over or buried. This compost pile of images and text is a collaborative, explorative, work built by blurring the lines between “self” and “other" in the vein of embracing collective thinking and dreaming new futures. The pile grows from previous score-based projects we co-wrote exploring language and experience as directions or notations for actions to subvert and conflate the roles of audience and performer. Previously existing scores were taken through a rigorous sifting process where resonant words, images, sensations, and emotions rose up and were carried into the next stage of composting while others submerged deeper into the subsoil of our word pile. As the discourse decayed, words inferred new feelings, scores were lovingly spread out over other scores until only a hint of the original sensations/meanings/intentions were left. We worked to feel our way through the breaking-down process, embracing the cohesive forms of letting-go of what we once made with care to instead sink in togetherness into the radical hum(us)ility of allowing something to change.